Randomness

Hehe!! Having two blogs are kind of good for me :).. It is because, perhaps, only little people know and remember about this link.

Anyways, I read my old posts in this blog and suddenly I miss the time when I was still pure, when I didn't have any feeling to make simple things turn into complicated things. Sometimes, I felt regret to know all of the facts.. but.. I can't change my past!! And some more I should say many many thanks to the experiences in the past, they have built me to be who I am HERE and NOW! :)

Almost one month I have been in my 21 years old and I can feel that I am more mature. Maybe it is so called the transformation from a big girl to be a woman! TOUGH process if I am allowed to speak it out.. Really, it is a tough process in which you yourself will be amazed seeing miracle things you can do.. in which you can see your mind tries so hard to get to know about this self.. in which family and friends become so much important that you won't be able to let go of them. Yeaps, it is more to the process where you know yourself but you are uncertain about it!

For me, I find that myself is someone with bunches of cares, patience, and tears. So much cares that I can't let my eyes go from my family and friends. So much patience that in the condition people think I should be angry, but I won't be. So much tears, it does not mean that I am a sad person.. but I find myself to be easily influenced by condition.. The tears come out following the flow of my feeling.

Being a woman is not easy, yet it is an interesting process for me! It is kinda funny and too early, but I wish that in the future, I will be a good mother to my children, I will be a good daughter to my parents, and I will be a good sister to my siblings.. Meanwhile, for this time, I closed my heart to see males, so I have no wishes yet to be a good wife to my man.. and I am still doubt and feeling uncertain about friendship things, so the wishes to some of them haven't been built yet :).. However, for some friends of mine, I value them so much that I have kept them lock in my heart. Hopefully, I will be a good friend to them in this present and future moment.